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i already deleted rpg maker xp because i wasnt going to do anything with it anyways

Hello welcome to the globel blog the blog where I the webmaster share some of my thoughts and findings

plans and what i've done so far

i finished the intial layout for the continent pages which i will gradually fill with content. after that i will flesh out the history page and then probably do a page for hungary or some religion or something. i'm kind of done with projects and think continuing to expand the roster of countries would be best

also i bought rpg maker xp because it was cheap on steam and i am considering making something that has something to do with globel though i doubt that will materialized any time soon considering the learning curve seems steep and after pushing various buttons on rpg maker i haven't really learned anything but an rpg centered around countries would be cool though i would be forced to make an actual storyline which i cant do

like a while ago i wanted to do something with twine but i just cant think of anything good which results in the product feeling like the author is just freestyling it which is true

rambling

i often struggle to find something to talk about and the few times i did post things on this site about my personal beliefs i actually lost thinking power because the statements were so outrageous and just so wrong that if i were try to make more arguments in favor of those statements i could just never ever do it thats how indefensible they are luckily nowadays i don’t care as much about the perceived quality of the content that i put out on the website so i can just do whatever i want to do because it is my site and no one cares anyways

The eventual goal of the website is not to kill time because i dont spend a lot of free time on this crap anymore but so i can maybe in the far future spend an entire afternoon immersing myself with content i wrote over the span of a couple of years i am too busy completing all yakuza games anyways so i wouldn’t have the free time to work on this website more even if i wanted to its an obligation

My main goals for the next few years are to really be confident in my ability to reason and string coherent stories together so basically become a better writer. I am not a native english speaker but english is the language ive been exposed the most to on account of me living out my childhood as a hermit with their face glued to the screen if you’ll note i used the pronoun their not because i am queer though i dont have anything against gay people i do not harbor discriminatory views despite what my classmates think but because i love to fool and making everyone think i am a busty woman secretly making this website because the possibility is always there

I always used to think that getting a girlfriend would fix my need for companionship but as i mature i realize that true happiness lies in being able to do what you want free from social shame if i want to wear a big shirt with vietnam plastered on it then i do that that is obviously not a big thing to do but a few years ago i wouldve been too worried about what other people think and talk myself out of it. i always was an attention whore though so this is my no care time

But I am actually a freak like actually spending my time indoors is not healthy for someone to do their entire childhood humans need social connection and i realized that too little too late leading me to live an unpopular life as a loser where everyone treats me like the butt of the joke because im so mysterious and silent and nonchalant obviously high school dynamics are not representative of adult life atleast i would hope not where i can start a new clean slate as a normal conforming person and not whatever others think of me now because i would rather not be treated like an outcast

id say my necessity to have what i said earlier is around a 3/10 because as i also said earlier you shouldnt pay to much mind towards the opinions of others which im not doing too much of i should say this now that i am not a believer in that you should practice what you preach i dont care if i said that you should care about what others say i cant help it im too undisciplined

I learned something new today but I forgot what it is because I’m writing this at night

Hello guys how are you

Nothing is happening with me I just want another blog post to fill the list

I didn't even know making your own website could be so fun

It sounds like a hassle but when you see it all come together all of your hard work pays off

I saw other sites on Neocities using status.cafe and thought it would be fun to also have my own status widget thing

When registering I forgot an additional character which means that I entered in the wrong email so I had to re-enter in my application but with the correct email

Sorry if the email confirmation is done manually I guess

I didin’t mean to make two requests

Also thanks to the one person from Turkey who visited the site that was really cool

I'm not even sure if the thing on the homepage works

bye

I learned something new today but I forgot what it is because I’m writing this at night

I was trying to get a new font going for the website because I felt like the current one I was using was a little too limited in scope for my liking. The problem is mostly that it didin’t cover every Greek letter which makes it look kind of.. Meh. Some were mixed in with Arial.

And I need a clean font with compatibility for (ancient) Greek because I'm working on a page exlusively about it.

Necessary header

I used Calligraphr which is a useful site but it only allows for up to 75 glyphs at a time which is a pain when you want to be large in scope. Or if you want one big font. It’s fine, I just broke up large templates consisting out of around 600 glyphs total (latin + ancient greek) into rows of 75.

To actually merge the fonts together I used FontForge. But, when I actually put all of the fonts together I noticed that uppercase L through Z was missing. To fix this, I just made a seperate font for all the letters of the alphabet, inserted it into FontForge first and then merged the rest of the fonts after.

The above is what it looked like before, I initially made this screenshot with the intention to show off how ugly it is, but I think I’m just going to fix it because it doesn’t really look that bad. Not as pixelated as the last and it looks a little funky up close, but it’s fine.

P.S. I had to sacrifice some usability on mobile but whatever

looking back this was pretty unnecessary

I learned something new today but I forgot what it is because I’m writing this at night

You know correct me if I’m wrong but I read somewhere that in the 80’s or something Americans for some reason started exploring communications with gorillas through sign language

The most popular experiment that came out of it (or kickstarted the popularity i don’t know) was Koko who supposedly understood over 1000 signs of American Sign Language and understood 2000 words of spoken English

Now if you look at some of the footage of the main person in charge of training her, Francine Patterson, actually interacting with her it seems relatively genuine. See here an example of what I’m talking about.

Because I’m not a person heavily invested in psychology or behaviour or whatever I’m not exactly qualified to say much, but it’s clear that Koko was intelligent. Though this is called into question by people who say that she’s purely reacting like this in order to get rewarded with food.

Ultimately the scientific consensus was that she wasn’t able to comprehend grammar or syntax which one needs in order to grasp true language. Shamelessly ripped from Wikipedia.

OK but what is the point of this? You’re not adding anything new to the conversation. I’m sorry but you’re just regurgitating already-known information

That’s right. Bye.

A: Hey.

B: Hey.

A: I’ve been feeling really down lately.

B: Noo, how come?

A: I don’t know. I just find it really hard to connect with others.

B: Okay. Easy fix. Talk.

A: Talk?

B: Yeah, talk. Get out there. Engage with others. Talk, actually talk. It’s okay if you fail, just try. The longer you keep on going the better your social skills will become.

B: Eventually, you’ll feel like connecting with others will become a breeze.

A: Are you sure? You’re just saying that with time I will evolve.

B: Yes? That’s true for most other skills, right? With patience, you become better.

A: True, but what if I’m not motivated enough to change? Wouldn’t I just stagnate?

B: Duh. But, if you really wanted to change, you would march through the challenge.

A: What kind of mentality do you think I have? That’s literally not going to happen. The moment something becomes too hard or too scary, I stop. I have that problem with most other things.

B: I never said you needed to start big. Small wins like making yourself slightly uncomfortable with things like initiating small talk is enough. The buildup is what’s important, not necessarily the mentality.

A: ‘Not necessarily the mentality’?

B: I said that you become better with patience, didn't I? A large flight of stairs becomes easier to walk up if you have better stamina.

A: So when I become comfortable enough to the point where I can easily engage in small talk with other people I should just force myself into a group conversation because I ‘have better stamina’?

B: I think I’m either being too unclear or you’re misinterpreting what I’m trying to say. Start small, go slightly bigger, then slightly bigger than that, and so forth.

B: When you look back at all the progress you’ve made compared to when you started, you’ll realize you’re capable of things you otherwise wouldn’t dare of ever doing.

A: But what if I get stuck at a step? Or at the first step?

B: Just.. I don’t know man. Build up courage. And, hey, you’re maintaining a conversation with me. That’s got to count for something, right?

A: Yeah, but you’re a friend. I can connect with a friend. Not a stranger.

B: I feel like we’re not getting anywhere. If you’re questioning everything I’ll say, then what’s the point in trying to help you?

A: Fine. Okay. I’ll ‘build up courage’. But it would help if you could put yourself in my shoes instead of assuming I’m like you.

B: I’m not a professional, dude. I’m just trying to help you with what I know and what I think.

what an attempt at parody it's amazing

Strawman: Um... AI art isn't real art and anyone that tries to debate my view is WRONG and IDIOTIC!!

AI Bro: What?

Guy: Ignore it.

AI Bro: Why?

Guy: It's just going to echo its views if you engage it without providing any sort of nuance. It's a caricature of an argument that has the potential to raise valid points but falls short to bait people into providing a reaction.

AI Bro: But.. I disagree with it! I LOVE AI art, and it's not even open to hearing my opinion!

Strawman: Wow. Wow. I'm going to send you death threats online and mindlessly repeat my main talking points.

AI Bro: No! You (and by extension) your side is completely wrong, and the only thing you're capable of is harassing others just because they disagree with you! My reaction is completely justified because you're not acting in good faith!

Strawman: Muahahahaha!!!

AI Bro: ???

Strawman: Guess what? I. Don't. Care! I'm going to continue misrepresenting my own argument and fuel your actually-unjustified-but-from-your-viewpoint-justified handling of the entire anti-AI standpoint because I HATE constructive discussion!

Guy: NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! THIS IS SENSATIONALISM AT ITS FINEST!!!! YOU AREN'T AN ACCURATE REPRESENTATION OF THE ANTI-AI ARGUMENT, STRAWMAN! YOU ONLY EXIST TO FURTHER ENTRENCH PRO-AI INDIVIDUALS IN THEIR STANCES AND POLARIZE THE TWO OPPOSING ARGUMENTS!!! NOOOOO!!!!!

my very first blog entry on my DELETED website snub

Today I learned that the main and body tags DO matter because the stupid table of contents in untitled alpaca game wouldn't work because I can't place divs outside of the body apparantly

Also if you think about it it's weird how nonchalant most western European governments are surrounding their history or just avoid discussing it

I mean you'd imagine these people of power would look back at their predecesors and think hey we're a modern, open-minded, accepting country now and we want to apologize to and help our former colonies the majority of which are struggling more than us in one way or another

But maybe I'm expecting too much from these governments in the sense that they also have their own problems to deal with and can't just drop everything for their victims

Of course the lengths of which a government decides to go to to make amends for their colonial past varies by country

bye

taken from deleted site snub added 28/7/2026 the website was deleted

last updated: 25/7/25 | original created: 5/6/25

i left this untweaked so you too can cringe when i stumbled across this

ok so imagine like a guy and gal living in some fictional country. the guy's name is bob and the girl's name is sal. nothing is based off of anything and no one is referencing anyone. bob is a bureacratic cog in the authoritarian country

opening

bob is a simple bureacratic worker serving his country proudly who's in charge of helping ordinary citizens by listening to their problems and helping make government services more accessible to the public. one day, a frantic-looking woman rushes to the booth bob works at.

bob: "hey there. how can i help you today?"

sal: "i want someone to love me."

bob: "huh?"

beat

bob: "what do you mean?"

sal: "i'm so alone, man. and i'm so done with the state trying to indoctrinate me."

bob: "woah woah woah you can't go around saying things like that--"

sal: "do you feel seen?"

bob: "seen?"

sal: "yeah?"

bob: "yeah."

sal: "that's great for you, but i don't. i never feel seen. but i want to be seen. by something, anything. i've gone my whole life adhering to others, listening, but never having anyone listen to me. to what i want, what i need."

bob: "i don't think this has anything to do with state affairs."

sal: "shut up"

"you know, my friend lina just got married. to a man. who am i married to? no one. i'm 30, and i have nothing to show for it."

beat

bob: "i think i'm going to call security and have them execute you"

sal: "don't do that. what are they even going to execute me for? being human? showing a shred of emotion?"

"listen, i just want someone to see me for me. i want to be loved by someone."

bob: "why??"

sal: "because everything feels so hollow! what's the point of living in this hellhole if i have no one to share my despair with??"

bob: "i don't like what you're saying"

sal: "are you going to call security?"

another beat sorry

sal: "you're the only man who hasn't shoved me away."

"thus far"

bob: "i've made up my mind"

sal: "yeah?"

bob: "thanks for your submission to the office"

a big burly security guard approaches from afar, sal looks behind her before snapping her head back to bob

sal: "oh my god"

"you think i'm wrong for being so open with my feelings?"

bob: "one hundred percent"

dilemma

two stray blog entries before deleting the globel site i don't want to leave these in because blog don't fit the sites purpose

13.54 i'm kind of stumped on what to do with the country portals. i just expanded oceania, which imo looks fine but writing and researching takes up a lot of time. also since i moved the changelog to the index the homepage looks kind of empty and idk what to add to make it look less desolate.

i think the site would also be more interesting if not every portal was just a large wall of text, but if not text then i don't know what to do to not make it look so empty. may update this page later if i come up with something or just forget

concept ideas

for now make a "portal" with custom colors (and banner??) for each continent and eventually country.

then each country could have subpages like comprehensive history, culture, food (maybe) language and some other things.

i'm thinking i could do specific pages for some countries like the adrinka symbols of ghana, the papal states i go over the history of all popes or a latin dictionary idrk yet though

it would also be fun to do a deep dive into ancient chinese/greek/japanese history/mythology (part of the reason why i went through with creating the site)

maybe if i'm up for it cover hisotrical states like the byzantine empire or timurids

unhinged rant i do NOT agree with as of 29/7/2026

honestly have no idea what i was thinking when i wrote this

if you’ve been online at all recently you might have heard of a certain ‘male loneliness epidemic’, which is a phenomenon where young men are statistically more lonely than the previous generations specifically in western countries. this is part of a larger loneliness epidemic affecting everyone.

background

i think it is a problem, but in the context of dating i think one of the reasons is because of women’s ability to choose for themselves. see in the past women were treated as subservient to men in most cultures, but with the rise of feminism and a call to end male dominance they’ve, at least in the west, been given more freedom than in any other time period which is closer to gender equality than ever before

women historically got courted by men and for the most part didn't have much of a say, combine that with the fact that wealth and stability mattered more than looks in, say the 19th century than the 21st and they’re seen and basically were more tools than people

not every man was wealthy but even among peasantry families wed off their daughters because it was less about love and more about image and stability and this freedom for women kind of exposed how the way some men found value. this former societal norm also didn’t force men to self-reflect (unlike prolonged loneliness) or change in any meaningful way by themselves.

cause

of course i’m not saying wealth is not a preference today but dating culture with equality for women allows them to pick their own partner and puts the focus more on love, and without the need to marry into wealth or being forced into something men don’t have it as easy as they used to and actually need to provide something of value besides money

incels

people like incels (involuntarily celibates) see this and when they fail to get a girl because of their looks, personality or otherwise blame it on girls instead of pointing the finger towards themselves while using justifications like ‘society is unfair towards ugly men’ or something

thing is society IS unfair to 'ugly' men and women both in different ways but (my take) undesirable women have been sort of outcasts for way longer than men and thus some have better ways of coping or dealing with it. because gender equality is somewhat recent, i’d be willing to say that ugly women are better equipped (i.e. friendships, finding a worth beyond romance) than ugly men to deal with rejection or exclusion

i think, for incels or lonely men, the best way to get a woman is to stop focusing on trying to get one. if you work on yourself, physically and mentally for your own gain (therapy, building social skills, empathy), i’d reckon you’ll be happier than if you blame women for your problems and refuse to better yourself.

of course, working out or whatever to get a girl is fine i guess but just put your own needs first and that rejection is fine because otherwise you’ll be stuck in a cycle of hate, rejection can cause victim mentality or frustration and frustration can turn into misogyny which in turn can cause rejection

note: women’s inequality =/= male loneliness epidemic, womens struggle and subservience is centuries old. the fact that women are closer to being equal is a good thing. male loneliness is in my opinion a byproduct of that.

It's been a few days, I didin't feel like creating an entry but I am for the sake of making the site feel less empty. Also I need an outlet to let out my thoughts.

Within a few hours I have to go to Judo. I don't really feel like going since I'm kind of sick and I stay there relatively late. I feel really bad for my Judo teacher since he's a good guy but he always gets pissed off when I don't go. Thing is, most of the time I don't feel like going. If Judo is supposed to teach you discipline, it has greatly failed me. I've, multiple times, skipped 2-3 lessons in a row because I was too "tired" or too lazy to go. It's shameless.

I'll probably stop going in like a year or so. We'll see.

Update: I got a bloody nose before even arriving at the place I train so I just went home. My parents were surprisingly understanding, I would've expected them to tell me to just stay there.

bye

infowiki was an attempt at trying to make a wiki out of my personal interests and digital presence but it quickly died because the concept of turning myself into an encylopedia wasn't that interesting i tend to bounce off of novel ideas pretty fast

I don't really like writing nor am any good at writing, sorry.

I really really REALLY hope it's Christmas tomorrow. I'll be really sad if it's not, because 19 days in and I'm already sick of 2025. I just want to go back to 2020.. Man, that would be cool. Staying in all day, barely paying attention to what my teacher is saying. Not like it's any different from now, I just want to go back.

I really wonder if anyone is just looking through all of these pages. I hope not, that would be weird. Kidding. Or am I? I don't know what I'm supposed to put in journals. Hope this suffices.

bye